December 25th 2005

December 25th of 2005 was the greatest day of my life so far. This was the night that I "remet" Janna Wogan. Her and I had dated for a week or so when we were in Junior high school together. We were both in the marching band and apparently, unknown to me, I was a stud. What a lucky girl then huh?? Anyway, I hadnt seen Janna in probably 4-5 years and certainly didnt have any serious interaction with her for years before that. Ryan Clare, Corey Aboud, Michael whatshisname, Suzy Kinser, Brian Kinser and Alissa Kinser were all there at some point or another I believe. Anyway, Janna and I hit it off like we had known each other all our lives. Though, we had tons of catching up to do. It was very odd. You can imagine my heart break when I found that she no longer lived locally. I could feel it then. The start of something magical. True love if you will. Anyway, people slowely drifted off to sleep leaving only myself, Janna and Suzy. I learned that Janna was a special ed teacher in Chicago. I had just recently been accepted to Arizona State University to major in special education. What a coincidence huh? Anyway, I knew right away there was something special there, and apparently, so did everyone else at the party. Ryan asked me the next day "So, you and Janna huh?" I kinda blew him off and pretended that I didnt know what he was referring to. I wasnt sure exactly what the hell I was feeling but I knew it was AMAZING. Suzy also asked me if her and I had something special going on.

Anyway, me, being the pussy that I am, waited until she went to the bathroom and SCRAMBLED to put my phone number into her phone. I felt SO silly and SO giddy at the same time. I was also nervous as hell that she would come back down the stairs and find me "sneaking" around in her phone. BOY was it close. She was at the bottom of the stairs when I hit the save button and luckily was distracted by all the sleeping lifeless people that she had to manuever her way around to get back to the couch. I think I sweated off about 5 pounds in that 30 seconds. Shortly after that, since I had to be at work the next day (not that it mattered, I was on cloud nine from that day forward, even now, today) we both agreed it was time for us to leave. We snaked our way across the sea of the sleeping and went to put our shoes on. HAHAHA Janna wears Chuck Taylor's. Now, I have a thing for punk girls, and I guess the shoes and the earrings are as close as an elementary school teacher can get. So I commented on them and made a joke.

Now was the most amazing moment of the night. It was like the end of a date. A bit ackward but fun at the same time. I cant tell you how much I wanted to kiss her right then and there, outside on the sidewalk in front of Suzy's place. So I gave her a great big "I think I love you so please dont ever let me go but if you have to please find my number in your phone and call me so I can show you" hug. So warm, so loving and soft. I could feel her caring tough and thoughts. I felt who she was through that hug. I think I fell in love right there. It might not be the love that I feel right now, but it was love surely.

Sadly, Janna didnt call me for a few months. She claims that she didnt realize that she had my phone number but who knows. Luckily I caught Suzy talking to her online one night and mentioned that she had never called me. I got a text message there after, though I dont remember what it said. I believe it mentioned something about not realizing she had my number.

So this blog is WAY too ass long but I needed to record this somewhere. Im sure there is a ton more.